how do i explain?

ok..i wanna let my boy knows that...i just really want him to do what he wants and is best for him.i am,in no way,can deters him.
but how do i explain that...what i wants for his interests conflicts with really what i want inside?

all the time...i thought it would be really great if he won the Talentine.first he is getting back or at least did something he wanted.second of coz,im would be proud of him.
but then i finally realise that...i kinda dun like it as well.

its like..i would always prefer watching Friends together on TV to a diamond necklace.
its like...for all the months..the boy i know who is not famous already,lost his glory and is so normal..is kinda vanishing.suddenly he is invited to sing and perform on stages(and even a duet!).
i mean...who is that guy?
no doubt i am kinda glad that he is enjoying what hes doing.he loves to sing and can sing.so i back off...so be it then.who am i to tell him i no longer like what he is doing now and stop him from doing it.

Singapore Idol.you know this sounds dumb!Singapore is forever following what others had done,in terms of variety shows.

today i saw the call for audition for S.I on TV mobile.i thought it WAS pretty interesting and knows he is considering,so i casually msged him.

i must be really petty and selfish,coz i know deep inside i kinda wish he wont be gg.

how do i tell him...i dun want any fame...all i want is a ordinary you..the one i know all the months.

this is like soccer...deep inside i wish he wouldnt sign up for any.i dun mind if we cant afford anything,i dun mind if he couldnt buy me stuffs...all i want is the time for us. time is a big compromising factor.
i would rather have one or two good and full dates than 5 short meetings.and that explain i really dun fancy the idea of meeting for dinner more often or whatever.

how do i tell him?

but i know i cant tell him what i want in compromise of what he wants.

i know if he signed up for clubs,his burden would be very much lightened and it would mean alot to him.
i know he likes singing and performing,even if going to the S.I doesnt mean he would win,but at least he did try.
everything...in return for the normal time we could have.

i always wanted the best for him.i mean..i know,with his talent and calibre,its not justified if he is staying at where he is.he is capable of doing something better and better when the time comes.

but...there is this..insecurity.the more and better he has done will means the losing of the one who i know first.

..ha...i guess im being silly again...but im really scared...one day..i will lost the boy i know.
how do i explain.....

the time is still too early to tell anything.

forget it...let us just pass a month by a month....hopefully things never change like what i fear.